Have you ever had an experience where someone went above and beyond the call of duty, necessity, or desire to help you? Tonight I feel an incredible amount of gratitude, and I can't stop this endless flow of happy tears. The tug-of-war in my mind is emotionally draining. My first instinct is to say, "You have no idea how much this means to me. Can we share an awkwardly long hug, because if I don't hug you, I'm gonna ugly cry all over you instead.", and my second instinct is to say, "You really shouldn't have done this! Seriously. Why on earth would you help us out?". Right now I'm stuck in the middle.
Tonight, Branson and I received a huge service, one of which has keep me holding back tears most of the night. It was something I felt we had no way of escaping. We were never going to survive without it, and I just about threw in the towel. Earlier Branson and I fought about that particular subject, people were brought into the conversation that shouldn't have been, and it just escalated into a messy blob of angry despair. I was in the wrong, and I'm pretty good about admitting I'm wrong--except when I'm in an almost panic attack...which I was. But I'm calm now...and I was wrong.
And then everything opened up...and I can't stop crying now. All I can say is that Branson's family is wonderful, and I adore them more and more each time I'm around them. They love me just as much as they do their own children, siblings, grandchildren, etc. I love my sister and brother-in-law more than words can express. Tonight I really needed their company, and I feel like a load has been removed from my shoulders. I'm not sure if they read this blog or not, I don't bring it up in every conversation, but if they do, they have to know (don't worry, I'm not just going to thank them on my blog. My parents raised me soooo much better than that.) I love them from the bottom of my heart. My heart is so full of gratitude and I just want to pull them all in and hug/ugly cry until I can't do it anymore.
From now on, at the bottom of each post, I will be sharing something I am grateful for. It might be something I have been thinking about, or it could be something that happened that month/day/week/hour. We need more gratitude in our lives. I hope you will also start to notice the things you are grateful for each and everyday, even when the going gets tough. Never forget how one grateful thought or feeling can enhance your mood drastically. And if you feel so inclined to share your moments of gratitude with me, I will never turn any story away. I'd love to hear them all!
So today, I'm grateful for the amazing family I married into. They are so kind and supportive, constantly blowing me away with their self-less love for one another.
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